I have been thinking about this a bit lately and I thought I would get some input from those of you who are willing to share. What is your biggest fear, the thing that tugs at you the most? I am guessing that a more normal person might list an insect, death, public speaking, etc. Not me, nope, couldn't be normal if I tried. What is my biggest fear, the thing that darkens my mind and haughts me? Simply, to have lived a mediocre life, frozen in fear of pain, and therefore not give myself away to others.

Okay, anyone else what to enlighted me on what is more 'normal'; want to reveal a bit about yourself???

Grace and Peace,

Crystal

I don't generally think about things in terms of 'fear', but it's interesting....

My biggest fear, from an outward perspective, is 'not being there', not being there for the people I love when they need me. I have some family members going through some tough times and it's hard to know what the best thing to do is sometimes....

From a personal perspective, as a photographer and a small business owner, I fear getting injured and not being able to work. It's affected my life in some ways, I don't do nearly as many possibly hazardous outdoor activities as I did when I had a corporate job with good job security and insurance (I worked for a government agency).

Curious to hear what others say....

~Bill

i guess on a personal level, i fear death - i often think about how i am going to 'bite the bullet' - i fear a long illness/disease. not having any children, i fear being alone when i am old and gray and unable to take care of myself and having to go to a 'home' . on a good note, i just got back a lot of test results and i am very healthy, so that made me feel a lot better.

on a business level, i fear nothing. it is what it is and whatever happens on that level, i am sure i can handle.

Thanks Bill and Tami, both of your responses are interesting and understandable to me.

Grace and Peace,
Crystal

this may sound odd, but i think i fear death so much because i am just enjoying my life so much - i just dont want it to end..... i'm happier now than i have been in a very long time.

I can hook you up with a package that will get you started on the kid front...

must.

not.

respond.


(matt wont let me)

Having children.

dying and heights. I have just gotten so far in my life and never want to end, everyday is just so much fun and i just love what i am doing. As for the heights part, its only for if i am jumping off something, like bungie jumping or skydiving that my mind is like "**** no there's no way in hell that i am going to do that, what are u carzy" lol.

at the moment?
relapsing

(checkup scan in 2weeks, fingers crossed!)

Loosing everything and my daughter then having to live the same poverty stricken childhood I did and or not being there if my daughter ever needs me.








Good luck errina

My only real fear, and one I have dreadful nightmares about, is anything happening to my children. I am fiercely protective of both of my sons, one only being a baby, and honestly don't know if I could go on if something happened to both of them. If anyone hurt them I would be like Sally Field in that 'Eye for an Eye' film. Watch out buster I'm comin' for ya!

I'm pretty content in my life otherwise: I have a wonderful husband, I have travelled, I have beautiful happy children and my business is blossoming. And even though I moan about it sometimes, I still love teaching when you get that rare moment (it happened today) when you know something has sunk in - that someone has learnt something worthwhile from you - magic!

x

Not all of us.. god... I don't think I could take that.. seriously. It's one of those things where I really do think age can be a factor... granted, I've been talking to someone that's 25... and someone that's 29... but the 25 happened out of sheer coincidence and she's much more mature, which isn't what I can say about most early 20's women I've met.

That used to be mine. I'm not worried about that any more. I really just worry about one thing. Hurting someone unintentionally, or someone hurting my friends.

And I'll add mine.. Biggest fear... I really have 2 and they are both really equal to me... so

One - Not being able to recover my business. I probably sound like a broken record at times talking about my accident in 2006, but it honestly took my business that was skyrocketing and shot it out of the sky. I went from being loved by all my clients to be hunted down by the angry mobs all because some moron couldn't see traffic stopped ahead of him. While the PPA Trust lawyers are working to help me through it all, it's just a painful process and really wish it was a process I didn't have to go through. But what happens, happens and I'll be sure that all of my clients problems are brought up in court when my personal injury case goes to court.

Two - I'm copying, but it's true. Being single forever. I've had some serious relationships but never the "one." The ones I really like end up turning into freaks (you mean I didn't tell you I used to be addicted to crack? Yeah, really.. ) I mean, not that I should judge people on things like that, but it goes a lot toward explaining their character. And I'm not perfect, by any means... I've dealt with some pretty odd medical problems since I was 16. It's not an impossible thing to live with, but you most likely will never see me on a beach in shorts for the rest of my life... so yeah... and did I mention that I really only date the tall girls? 5'10" or above to get on this ride.... As someone who's so tall (6'10") you have to be in my shoes to understand it.. I just don't like towering over the women I'm going out with.

My house burning down--ever since I was little I've been terrified of this. Might have had something to do with the base board heaters we had and my parents' nonstop nagging about keeping everything and anything away from them to avoid fires--yeah, that might have instilled the fear!

I have 3 'biggest' fears - starting with the biggest of the big.


1. Not gaining entrance into the kingdom of Heaven.
2. Having to watch my children and wife tourtured.
3. Mankind when/if the world economy collapses and there is no food available.


Yes, those are my biggest fears right now and one's that I am prayerfully trying to overcome.

How's that for 'normal'?

fears...humm.. i guess i could say i fear a little of all of the above...

my biggest fear is something happening to my 76 year old grandma. she is like my MOTHER (the best in the world) and I will probably die also the day something happens to her..... I have never had anyone close to me pass away ..I avoid funeral homes like the plague... I don't like dead bodies if i am around anyone who has passed away even if I don't know them I cry like a baby. weird huh? oh yea and hospital critical care ..oh my ... i can't walk through the halls with out crying either... anyone have a diagnosis for that?





chrissy

One fear that I have won't happen, it's more of an impossible nightmare, but as other have said, it's based on my children. Recently I see police cars with those "Don't abandon your baby" stickers. I can't remember what they say exactly now but it really wrentches my stomach when I think of the possibility of that happening. Holding my little boys when they were babies has been one of the most utterly fantastic feelings ever. The thought that someone would rather place a new born baby in a dumpster or wrapped in plastic to suffocate makes me sick. What happens in my mind is seeing the "what if" of those kids being mine. It brings tears to my eyes as I even type this. Those poor little, defenseless babies. How is it that some could be so self righteous and do something like that? It's that pain and that terror in the eyes of children due to separation from their parents that tears me up inside. When my 5 year old and 7 year old have nightmares and think we're gone, it hurts me so deeply. A couple weeks ago, about 3 in the morning when my little Isaac should have been fast asleep I heard whimpering from the boys' room. I shot out of bed and almost killed myself in the dark running to his room and here in the middle of the room, in the pitch black stands Isaac (5) holding his blankey and asking "where are you Daddy?" Dang it. I'm starting to tear up again like I did that night. I slept the rest of the night in his bed.

I have a great fear of people I love dying...getting "the phone call" and I also have a fear of dead things--dead animals, for instance. I don't have pets because I shudder at the thought of finding one of them dead cause it is so gross to me.

I am wierd..this is deep..and now I am in a mood thinking about these things! Thanks a lot!

I have a huge fear now of not being able to have kids because of my PCOS. It's one of the main causes of infertility in women and it really freaks me out that I might not be able to have kids. All I've ever wanted since I was really little is to be a mom.

I have the exact same fear as Mark. I am also afraid that my kids are going to fall. Like literally fall off of something very high. I won't let them go on balconies or up open sided staircases. I am not afraid of heights myself, but I just am constantly worried about them falling off of things. I have nightmares about it.

I have this strange fear that if I'm in a high, perilous place, that I will jump off the edge! Everytime I'm up high somewhere, like the Grand Canyon, I get this crazy urge to leap! (Not in a manic, depressed way!)

Oh! And I'm terrified of guns. *nod nod*

Yes, at the moment, and possibly for the rest of my life, my biggest fear will be my husband relapsing.

Biggest Fear: Relapsing into depression. (though i don't think on it much, cause it can be a self-fulfilling fear.)

Second Biggest Fear: Falling off a cliff in a moving vehicle.

hows he going?

Hi Alyssa!

A close friend has PCOS and tried for a number of years to have a baby via ivf and now she and her hubby have a gorgeous, healthy 2 yo girl. You will be a mum! Always hope.


x

He's doing really well! We found out yesterday that last week's PET scan shows a "complete response." So, he's in remission!!! We are hoping they will be able to schedule a surgery in the next couple of weeks to get the port taken out of his chest. Then, settling back in to "normal" life, with the addition of follow ups every three months. You know the drill.....

I think that was my first participation in a thread jack. Sorry!

johnny, i do not understand nos. 1 and 3.

It would be hard to understand without the belief system (#1) and the knowledge of things to come (#3) that I have. But I will do my best to explain.

#1 - I've tried to work really hard to follow God's will since I was saved. I study the scriptures, pray and do my best to be the best person I can be. But there are moments when I get far from God and too wrapped up in the world that I fear not being able to spend eternity with Him and my Saviour. This fear is good however, because it keeps me honest with myself and God.

#3 - The fact that I do study the scriptures, history and end-times prophecy... has led to some interesting gifts, mainly a strong spiritual discernment for things yet to come, since the signs are all around us it is easy for me to see where things will most likely end up.

This world is going through the birth bangs of 'change' right now.
We are in the tribulation spoken of in the scriptures, and it is only going to get worse. Through these rough times, mankind (who no longer relies on God but more on 'self' for guidance) will naturally grow more and more selfish and when economies and govts. fall and there is no law they will do whatever is necessary to survive.

Food riots are already happening in the world and it is only a matter of time before it hits western culture. We've had it so good for so long, and not once did the majority thank God for the good times - instead, they puffed up with pride, acting as if it was them who made things happen.

By not giving credit where credit is due, God removes his hand of protection and things spiral as they are now.

So my fear in #3 is man, simply because man is evil and selfish and when faced with the trial about to come, and not having God in their life, I fear what mankind will do or become.

This will happen, but only for a short while (but it will feel like forever to some). There will be a false 'saviour' first, who becomes leader of the world. Our rights, sovereignty and freedoms will be eliminated and you will have neo-fuedalism.

Athiests and Monotheists (especially Christians) will be herded off in box cars and white buses to 'processing' camps to determine each person's willingness to enter into the 'new era'.


I fear what is to come (#3) because it leads to my fear in #2.
And that is why I am prayerfully trying to overcome that fear now, so I may stand strong for God and my family.


I know that what I've written may sound crazy to some, but it is the truth that we will all face soon. Prepare your hearts and souls.

Ok I am being serious now, even though this may seem like I am not.

I have heard that this false saviour is Barack Obama. Do you think that is true?

He is AN antichrist, but not THE antichrist...


I honestly see the poor man getting assassinated by Hillary's cronies ...

If he is an antichrist... why do you refer to him as a poor man? seems good riddens would be more the sentiment for an antichrist.

And why do you not think he is THE antichrist?

This stuff is kinda scary to me and more than enough reason to not vote for him in the fall.

i would really like to know what all the thinking behind this is. antichrist? come. on.

I will answer when we get back from the zoo.

is that a secret code?

It all over the net.... here are a few links...

http://www.barackobamaantichrist.blogspot.com/

http://www.theantichristobama.com

Thank you!

Word associations are coming to mind....

buttons - pushed

fish - barrel



Dammit!!

Don't stress the PCOS, there is simply too much that can be done to help you with that. Thanks for sharing, I can totally understand your fears!I hope that your fear is never realized. I do understand depression and it is truly horrible. Thanks for sharing Jillian!wow I totally understand this one (at least the phone call bit). I am so glad that he is better!

biggest fear?

hmmm....

that I may have blown off the guy I was supposed to end up with because I am a total commitment-phobe and as result very blasé about relationships.

Most people are sad when they find their pets dead.

Your mustache is kind of scary to me, Tami

its a caterpillar taking a nap.

Ha ... me too -- that is why I don't have one anymore. I had a mustache from like 20 to 40... then I had my beard phase -- till about 42 I would guess and have been clean as a baby's bottom since.



No -- I am trying to get a couple of airport extremes to talk with one another... Something is amiss.

I wonder if Johnny got eaten by a lion?

... that the doughnuts will come back to life and eat me.

Nope, just a really looooong day at the zoo.
It takes 10x longer to go anywhere and do anything when you have as many monkeys children as I do.


So back to my intended response before I had to rush out the door with the kiddies.

Jim, you said:


Just because someone is deceived does not mean that I wish any harm on them. I refer to him as a 'poor man' because I honestly do not think he is aware of his manipulation by the 'powers that be'. He, an most, are all but pawns in a massive game of global control.

I call him AN antichrist because he isn't a true Christian. And anyone who is not a true Christian is an antichrist.

For those who want a biblical definition of what an antichrist is - CLICK HERE

Now THE antichrist (ie. the single human person who basically is the devil incarnate) will reign for 7 years. The Church labels this 'beast' of Revelation and Daniel's prophecies "the Antichrist" because he is the "ape of Christ"... meaning that he isn't only against Jesus but apes/mimics him in many ways... in order to deceive mankind. This is why many atheists and true Christians will be hauled of together to be 'processed'.




I've seen the link you posted, and it is very interesting.
I've seen how he can cause a so called "pro-life" church stand and cheer when he slickly explains why he is in favor of abortion.

So he is definitely AN antichrist, but he is not THE antichrist.
He is to be avoided. Any association with him is association with evil.

The reasons why he isn't THE antichrist is biblical,
he just doesn't fit the profile.

In brief this is why I feel he isn't 'the' guy:
1. As far as we know, he has no Jewish blood.
2. He may be able to swoon us Americans, but I am not sure if his powers of deception are capable of convincing the whole world of his 'greatness'.
3. His name (Barak Hussein Obama) translates into: "the handsome one by whom Islam will fill the earth." And from what I know of biblical prophecy, THE antichrist will use an amalgam of all religions (mainly new age mingled with monotheism... in order to deceive the 'emerging church' folks). So even though he will be instrumental in the plan to clamp down on true Christian faith, he is nothing but a pawn.
4. I honestly believe, and have ever since he 'showed up' that "they" would use him as another Kennedy or Lincoln, and sure enough, people are (for whatever reason) comparing him to those two (assassinated) presidents. I feel sorry for him and pray for the state of his soul - he reminds me of a Manchurian Candidate.

...

I want to avoid getting too deep into this for the sake of all here (sorry for the threadjacking) - I don't feel I should be throwing any pearls, and would be glad to go further biblically in a separate thread or via pm.




That's probably a good thing.
I would suggest if you do vote, vote Ron Paul - otherwise right in someone worth while.



So there you have it.